I’ve been gone for a while.  I was writing all the time but I let someone bully me into eliminating 7 years worth of diaried thoughts, events and motivation.  They didn’t like my language and thought it was unprofessional to write that way.  Yeah the blog NO ONE read was going to prevent me from opportunities.  OK, Maybe but shame on me for listening.  shame on me because writing makes me happy..  Not cool Girlfriend but it’s ok.  So this is my new beginning.  This is my place for reflection and creation as I head into my “big one” birthday in a few months.  I’m half way through my life.  Where am I going and what am I doing with the second half?   This is my favorite picture of me and how I want to look every day for the rest of my days.  Happy.   This blog is about approaching 50, hitting 50 and life after 50.  Fitness is my focus and this space is primarily about what that looks like at my age, for me.  Writing about working out and what I can do and achieve.  How I am using food as fuel for those workouts and learning how to do that better to reach my goal.  Writing about races (I run) and goals and putting me first.  I feel happy when I write and I’m happy to be back.  My old writings were started by and filled with rage and anger and sadness.  I started running so unhealthily to deal with one of those life blows that you just don’t see coming that take your breath right out of your body until you feel like you will die.  Something that nearly ended me mentally which would have led to physically if I didn’t find a way out, has been what has built me back up to be stronger.  It’s what drove me to start running and writing in the first place.  It’s given me the strength to find myself again.  I’m not there anymore so starting a new blog is ok with me.  Letting go of stuff is necessary to move on so let’s just do that.  Today is a new beginning.