I like to write when I feel I have something to say.   Really there aren’t many people except perhaps my running friend(s) who might read my diatribes.  Today I thought it would be a good idea to write a post every week in this year reflecting on things I’ve learned or experienced that particular week in addition to my spontaneous writing.  It will help keep me paying attention to what I’m doing and feeling and now that I’ve written it, accountable.

This week I FELT the tweeks I made in the way I was consuming my food / macros make sense to me.  Not so much in the way I felt in my body but in my head it just clicked and made sense.  I know I’m on my “right track” because of this gut feeling.  Good job me!

This week I also felt intimidated by someone else.  I don’t usually care about people around me and I don’t get intimidated.  I take mental notes  from those around me so I can try new things but never have I felt intimidated like I did last night.  This was totally on me because the woman that sat down next to me on the rowing machine is the nicest person and someone I know and work with.  She said nothing but this person is in great shape!  She works harder than I do at staying in shape and clearly has figured out how to eat and workout for her needs.  She’s a little ball of muscle and looks amazing.  When she sat down next to me my immediate reaction on the inside was “row faster!”  I thought she was better than me but why I don’t know.  Then I had a little talk with myself.  1)  you’re 23 years her senior and you shouldn’t be trying to keep up with her.  2)  she isn’t trying to beat you and this is not a competition. 3) She isn’t the type of person who would come over and be a gym bully.  I kept rowing and I kept my eye on my goal of 2500 meters.  It used to be 10 minutes but now I row for meters no matter how long it takes me to get there.  The last time I rowed to 2500 meters it took me 13:09.  Last night I did it without killing myself in 12:24.  I’ll give her a little credit for that one as I probably worked just a little harder!  Thanks friend!

So that is my Reflections for this week.  Every day is progress and motivation to make tomorrow better, to make me better, to live better.