So this week I had two rest days which was unintentional but necessary.  I’m ok with that because I’m trying very hard to look at my fitness in a different way other than listening to the “you suck because…” speech that I seemed to always give myself.  In reflecting on this week there were three things that stood out to mention in the weekly reflection.

Wrestling with Carbs is a pain- Yes yes yes!   Counting stupid carbs is a pain in the butt and I hate it but I will keep doing it loosely as the focus is now calories.  I want to see what happens by feeding the machine more.  I’m seriously fearing the pudge but holding out praying it’s muscle if so.  I am going to figure this feeding the machine thing out one way or other!

You have to step outside your comfort zone.  Working out is a job in and of itself.  You have to plan it, do it, revise it and do new things too. You can’t stay on machines all the time and you can’t do the same exercises all the time.  You have to switch it up and even do the same exercises differently to work other little stabilizer muscles to get that well-rounded fitness level going on.  For example, I now have incorporated groups of movements as a set and one or two of those three need to be a new movement.  I also, when on the adduction machine, lean forward and grab the tower sides with both hands and do 10 reps then I sit back and do another 15 reps.  It works your body in slightly different ways.  so much work but we’re getting to the “it’s worth it” stage.

If you’re not tired when you leave you didn’t work hard enough.   I was the queen of working but not really putting in the dripping effort.  I figured that I would keep working and eventually I’d get there.  I’m not convinced any longer about that so I’m switching it up and working hard enough to be out of breath at each set of exercises that I am feeling drained when I leave.  Today I walked 10 minutes on the stupid stairs at almost “get me the eff off this machine” level.  I was huffing and puffing and tired.  I went rather briskly and only brought it down once to catch my breath.  It was the hardest I’ve worked on the stairs ever.  It felt good!

Will power is a must have but not for food.  Will power for leggings.  There I typed it OK!  I have a CVG problem!  Yup, Constantly Varied Gear makes squat proof leggins (truth!) in the best patterns and I want them all.  Today I bought 2 pairs.  It was only$67 bucks because I got 15% off but I already own 4 pair.  Do I really need two more no but YES!  I don’t have many vices but workout gear is just awesome and these leggings are hugely compressive so they feel good on my legs after I work my legs.  I love them but I need to dial it down.  Hey, at least it’s not a food addiction.