Better late than never I say.  This week seemed full of lessons and thoughts I want to share so here they are in brief.

• Divorce the Scale- STOP enabling the scale to dictate your days!  I now weigh 3.5 lbs more than I did over the course of many weeks gone by.  I’m heavier but I shed my size larges for mediums so how is that possible? It’s possible because I am muscle heavier and have changed the shape of my body.  Don’t empower the scale!

• Have I really shrunk to a medium??  I have not been a medium in a really long time, like High School long time.  As my larges were falling down as I ran, I just thought they were stretched out not that I was a different shape.  As I ordered mediums I really prayed that they would fit because I did not believe I was the difference.  Work hard and you’ll make changes you never thought you could.

• I’m afraid of food but learning to relax. I’m eating about 1,000 calories more every day which is is freaking me out  I’ve been brought up in the McDonalds fatty society where people eat gross food and are fat.  My mother loved junk food and I have spent my entire life fighting the pudge.  I only learned recently HOW to eat well and what clean eating is.  I was always taught that more calories is a bad thing and less are the way to get “skinny”.   Listen, I don’t want to be skinny, I want to be a powerhouse muscle toned bitch in a bikini.  You know, the one that makes everyone say “wow she looks great”.  I’m getting there but only through more calories to feed my machine and make it work harder for me, not fewer calories because then my machine goes into starvation mode and I can’t win against that.  Feed your machine!

• You have to find the small successes along the way to your goals.  As I get heavier I am noticing things that I really like.  Like my butt is lifting up and looking better.  My hips and love handles are melting away.  Working with heavier weights and a mixed up weight program are toning my abs without having to do stupid sit-ups and side sit-ups for days.  Thank goodness because I don’t like them anyway.  I’m noticing improvements and those improvements are driving me hard to keep going.  Find your small success’ and grab on to them and keep working hard.  You’ll get there.